Just some random thoughts...comments...whatever.

4.02.2009

I know that God has a purpose for me. He has a very specific purpose for me. I don't know what that is, but I know that it exists and that He will guide me. God has a way of letting me go about my life, walking along the path before me, and following the curves. But whenever there is a fork in the road, I usually seem to start down the wrong path, toward the wrong open door. When I get to the door, THEN God slams it shut in my face. He did that when I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes - I had planned to go into the military, to be in the Navy and go to the Naval Academy like my dad.  He shut another door very recently when the woman that I thought I was going to marry ended our relationship forever. It hurts when He does that. But in the pain I can see that He is guiding me, and I have peace in the knowledge that He has a plan for me, that is for my good and His glory.

Something else recent is my name change...it's not really a change, just a different nickname. "Alex" gets kinda old after all these years. I have a friend who went to Scotland last year; when she got back she started calling me "Sandy." So there you have the origin of the name. Why, you may ask, do I want to change my name? I have no clue. But I do, and I would love it if everyone would start calling me "Sandy" instead of "Alex." Anyway...

I've had a lot going on in my life recently. I'm not sure where I am headed, but I know that God has a plan for me. I find it amazing how God can use the same verse in so many ways. My life verse has kept me going for the past few weeks, as God has brought to my attention different applications for it:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." -- Jeremiah 29:11